lunedì 20 ottobre 2014

Stop misunderstanding me

 I had the urge to write down this post because I felt the necessity to blurt out some things I can't stand at all.

The first one is about people who say I'm strong. You're totally wrong. I act as I were strong only to avoid other people get worried about me, but the few ones who really know me, can say that I'm a really fragile person, who has frequent breakdowns, mostly on the emotional side rather than the physical one. I cry very easily and very often. I need a shoulder to cry over or simply a hug almost everyday, but I find myself curling in my bed alone.

The second one is about who says I'm too childish. I know I am childish sometimes, and I'll also tell you why. Since I had to take care of my sweet sister, stuck on a wheelchair, I had to grow up burning steps of childhood and now I'm -desperately- trying to get them back and live them. That's also why, when I go shopping or just go around, I always look for cute and almost childish stationery items. Of course I can't blame my sister at all, she has no fault in all of this. The ones to be blamed are the ones who ruined her life in this way.

The third one is about feelings. As I said before, I'm very fragile, so I tend to get hurt if anyone says me he/she hates me, even if maybe it's a joke. Stop, please. Stop. It hurts so much. And really, I don't want to suffer over jokes like these.

I think it's all. I don't know if anyone will read this post, but who cares. I really needed to get these things out of me.

So, bye, with love.

mercoledì 8 ottobre 2014

To a dear person I admire

Hi everyone! It's been a while since I wrote here the last time and I know I have a lot of stuff to write about, but that stuff can wait a little longer. ヽ(・ω・ゞ)

I want to dedicate this post to a girl, a cosplayer and artist I really admire. Her name is Anto and she is from Italy, even if she works in London. 。◕‿◕。

I had the chance to meet her during a convention both of us took part at and I really felt happy about meeting her! (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧

Asidfrom being a cosplayer and artist, she's a very kind person, who cares a lot about her fans, without making you feel the gap between you and her (just like someone does, acting like "Who are you? I'm famous, so why should I talk to one like you", things that makes me feel bad, because I think that if someone is famous, it's also thanks to the support fans give to this person, so he/she should at least thank them). We chatted for about a week before meeting. (´ω`★)

When I saw her at Romics on Saturday I started shouting her character's name (she was cosplaying as Nine from Zankyou no Terror), hoping not to get the wrong person. Luckily I wasn't wrong and she apprached me, greeting me (I was so so happy!). Unluckly she was in a hurry, so we didn't manage to talk for more time, but we took this selfie with her mobile and I cherish it so much, it's also my facebook picture and my mobile wallpaper (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧

She's just so perfect 

On Sunday I arrived late at the con (it was about 2 pm) and I saw her while she was doing a photoshoot with her cosplay group from Haikyuu! (She was Kuroo) and I approached the group pretty shyly, being afraid of bothering them and interrupting them. When she saw me I waved her hello and she ran towards me hugging me just like my best friends do! I really love that kind of hugs and I wantd to cry so much, but then I remembered about wearing contact lenses so I restrained from crying. I also asked her for her signature. I thought about it for a lot of time, since I was afraid she didn't want to for any reason and moreover I'm really shy, so I wasn't sure about it at all. 
When I realized she was happy about it I also felt happy and I wanted to hug her so much! I gave her my sketchbook to let her sign it and I started giggling for the whole day thinking about what happened. (◍•ᴗ•◍)❤

Ah, I was forgetting... On Saturday I also gave her a fanart I made about Nine, since he's her favourite character from that anime (I promise I'll watch it soon!) and I wanted to give it to her as a gift! ❣◕ ‿ ◕❣

I'm sorry for the low quality of the pic  <(_ _)>

So well... Thanks for being such an amazing person Anto and I can't wait to see you again in April! (◕‿◕✿)

Kisses! ( ˘ ³˘)♥( ˘ ³˘)♥( ˘ ³˘)♥